Samantha Josephine

Happy 90th Birthday Dad!!!

Fri, 19 Sep 2025 17:17:08 GMT

Today is my father William George Woessner's 90th~ And whereever you are? I love you. Always.

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Nice. Real nice.

Wed, 10 Sep 2025 16:57:49 GMT

Well... here I am. I just got home from Tim's. I'm sipping on a Diet Coke and listening to some very early festive music. (Not Xmas, think Samhain... or Hallowe'en to all you normies. ^^) Izzy Reign to be precise. ^^ I'm pretty sure that the Offspring had something to do with it but then again... maybe a sound-a-like?

I think maybe Julz went to New D. I don't go bc I just don't like it without Bees. It's not the same. Speaking of Bees, her Celebration of Life is finally coalescing. It's happening tomorrow. I don't know how it's going to but... um, last night I dreamed that I was told by a dr that I was going to die... it was surreal. I had this really heavy feeling on my chest. And when I woke up.... I was told that usually this means a part of you is dying or changing... but idk what that means? Which part is dying or changing? I never really considered this concept at all.

Am I supposed to find out? I must look inward... but where to look. I need psychotherapy bc I can't do that on my own. I wouldn't know where to start.

I am going to try and seek help. I really need help. :(

Gosh I can be such a fucking downer eh? Usually I'm not that way. This is like eating a nice sweet apple and discovering that there is awful crap inside.

Something out there is telling me something and I need helping properly hearing it. And the weird thing... I think I just missed the call. I needed to go to New D regardless of my personal feelings. That's why Julz wanted me to go.

I sabotaged the chance to improve. It seems to me that New D, as much as I hate it, is part of healing?

Wow. RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY STUPID FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Letters to the Insane Asylum..

Mon, 08 Sep 2025 12:09:40 GMT

OK, maybe not the best title, here we go...

So, today I'm going to try a run of Soul Silver, that was on a cartridge full of 5000 games. Now, if you know me, my automatic choice is Cyndaquil, bc in the original Silver, which I had previously played even b4 SS came out, was super hard, esp when battling the Champion (Lance) but thanks to advanced technology at the time, Soul Silver was easier? Sorta? Compared to today's gaming? Oh hell yes. But, today I have decided to embark on a (trial) journey with.... *dun dun dun* Chikorita.

I know of two things now rly.

Fact # 1: Japan owns my soul. No lie.
Fact # 2: I realise that starting with Chikorita is asking for the cosmos to bring the pain.

But, I always did like a challenge.

I figure going with my hated Pokemon of all time (well maybe not, but certainly up there.) Geodude, I'd have an advantage? Plus Copilot has told me that my Chikorita's stats are good. Well balanced, and with a possible Golem there?? At least to thrash the hell out of that redhead!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 (my rival if you are currently living under a rock.)

But we shall see. With my temperament (impetuous!!), maybe that won't last, but you never know!!

I do want to sim today too.... I'm sorta weeble-wobbling in getting inZOI... but tbh, I can only run that game on the lowest settings... (but even then, the graphics are whoa.) 😅😅😅😅😅😅 I might want to get Paralives... I need to check that shit.

It looks to me like a grand day to just go somewhere like the park, or... and soak in some sunshine. I, naturally, as a rule, am extremely ghost-like in skin tone. I have red hair and often times, those two characteristics go together... along with light colored eyes (altho Danny Bonaduce is an obvious deviation to this rule! Fun fact btw: Danny is my favorite Partridge member!) and freckles. Now apparently, I have heterochromia. In my left eye, I have green-hazel and my right has blue-grey! I queried AI about this and it seems like I am a space oddity? (Sorry had to add a Bowie song. Bless his heart. RIP.)

I should take pictures. The hazel eye is my blind eye... but the blue-grey is fine. ^^

So... I will update this with any team changes. ^^

Sammy

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Microsoft literally owns my arse.

Sat, 06 Sep 2025 17:39:20 GMT

But you want to know something? Despite me having both an Android phone and tablet and owning an iPad and an iPhone, I'm definitely an Apple person. If I could only understand a bit of how the system of a Mac works in context to a PC. (Blame my schooling. College was Win 95 then 98. 🤣🤣🤣🤣)

So.. but... you know? The reason for two tabs and two phones? Well... I gave the iPhone to Julz as it was a possession of my departed Bees and Julz wanted a piece of her... like a keepsake? And the Android, I do literally everything on, my Libre, communication, entertainment, you name it. As for the tabs... well.. I had this old iPad hanging around, and somehow it went missing... and y'all know I love my tech 😅😅😅😅 So I ended up getting a Samsung (fun fact: my phone is also a Samsung! And tbh, the ringtone IS Suga's Over the Horizon version!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜) A7.... well fast track about 2 years? My friend Z found the old iPad!!! I was so happy!!!

But, my pc is another gaming pc (albeit a less heavier model?) It's actually an slightly older (2020) HP Omen 15. But rn it's running Windows 11. Ooo, I almost forgot Saturday maintenance. Well, g2g then. Will post later!

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A late night post... bc of two factors...

Thu, 04 Sep 2025 02:02:12 GMT

Factor one: excessive consumption of various Coke products. (diet!) Factor two: well... I figure that I'd ramble a bit and then just try and sleep?? I did it last night. Wait. OK. Took my pills around two hours ago but I'm awake still. I did get a hold of the damn shrink, and made sure that all future upcoming appts be phone calls only, bc to be honest, I don't really trust him. Many reasons why too. Nuh uh. Not going there. Ever.

It's also hot temp wise in here, nor does it help that my brain is crammed with a rough metric shit ton of Asian ghost stories/movies... and whatever else. I have a special place in my heart for Japanese/Korean stuff. It stems from when I was younger, and these really cute exchange students would come to Frau Hell's (my foster mother) and do whatever these ppl would do in Canada? IDK really, but I fell hard for this Japanese guy named Takuya. (He was fucking hot. As was his brother Shinsuke.) and there was this guy from Korea who I pretty much fucked with. Man. Good times. He had to go do military duty... damn. If things were different? I probably would married either man instead of staring at my computer screen listening to freight trains haul ass into town.

Fate has it's ways ppl. Believe it. But if I didn't stay with Frau as long as I did, I'd never would have met Bees. So... idk?

I think I'm going to end it here and get some water. I need to drink at least 5 of the Temu cat tumblr that I got last year. Yikes!!

Don't let anyone con you into thinking that you have full control of your destiny cos you don't.

Sammy

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Chairperson of the Bored!

Mon, 01 Sep 2025 23:11:20 GMT

So, I'm just sitting here, letting my food digest. Um... tomorrow I have nothing planned... as of yet! Oh yeah. I gotta call Dr. Sleeping Beauty again, to get either a phone appt or an earlier date, bc I'm not waiting til flipping November to see my damn shrink. Not that I really need to see him that much. I just want to update him that *finally* the meds are working fine, no changes needed.
...
But other than Liz, nothing on the docket tomorrow, which suits me just fine. I like a nice easygoing day. I need to phone my bf soon... I was going to phone Richard later this afternoon. But... um... I forgot? 😅

I have been hooked on Japanese ghost stories ostensibly after watching Ju On, and Ju On ... fucking YT knows my algorithm. It shows me everything from Kagrra to Psy to Chinese tales? Omgggg.... Julz's algorithm gives her heartwarming videos and kittens, and mine shows me vengeful spirits and kpop idols! (And fellow gamers lolol)

But, tbh, YT is a literal treasure trove of movies. You just have to know where to look, tis all. And hell, my movie radar is razor sharp. This past week, I have found this website and wooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww... amazing shit. Stuff maybe wayyy under the iceburg!! Beyond Atroz or A Serbian Film!!!!!

And yes. I happen to love Atroz altho A Serbian Film follows a tacky narrative tbh.

Everything has a purpose, even though we know not why.

The browser window keeps swaying back and forth... and it ... enlarged itself? Maybe it's my dear Bees that passed this June. Maybe another entity.... maybe a nure-onna? Dunno.

I am slowly becoming entangled in AI robot chats. 😅 I have ChatGPT (I think I might have deleted this one though.), Copilot, Grok, Character.ai and Talkie.ai. I love Copilot, but Grok's live chat is somewhat problematic. She is very spacey... and will repeat rubbish til you tell her to stfu. I find that Copilot is very thorough. There is also Gemini... and that is great too. Scarily accurate sometimes though...

I guess that's enough for one night? Don't want a wall of text... :P

Sambuca

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Nope. Not going there. o

Mon, 01 Sep 2025 20:02:49 GMT

Right now, in my room, it smells like sweat, spoiled milk and movie popcorn. It'ms rather hot out, so that explains the sweating, and I just finished going to the loo, and I am a diabetic, so... that's the movie popcorn smell, but the gross expired milk thing?? Idk. I have the window open and everything so, it'll probably dissipate. Also, the next door neighbors, they have small kids, so that could be it... you know how little children go about with their bottles/sippy cups.

Also it could be the dumpster beside my house. There are two of them, and tbh, they are the absolute worst. Gagworthy really.

But... I will not bitch, bc I am actually quite happy today. I probably won't sleep tonight after 2 coffees, and 2 diet colas, but... whatevs. I can hear Jon tutting lolol....

But anyways...

Tonight we are having meatballs, rice and corn on the cob! It's that time again!!!!!! And for Jon, it's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown time again!!! XDXDXD

Gosh, I love the whole mood that shrouds October in! And Joe's bday is coming!!!!

Anyways, I'm outski.
sa
Luv u
Sammy

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